GRRRR

Somebody smack me!!! I just want to fall asleep and not wake up for a few months. So much going on and nothing ever goes smoothly. Gotta get out of this *f*ing house and soon. It's like Flowers In The Attic. Trying to stay positive, despite the road blocks and all I want to do is cry. Long messed up story and I don't know where to vent, but at least if I yell and scream here, nobody will hear it. Had a counselor tell me once that I'm like a clown and cover all of the hurt with makeup and acting cheerful. One of my friends told me the same, that I'm good at faking it. Always try to uplift/be there for everybody and "act" ok, but I just don't feel that way right now. I feel like SHIT!!!!